Hello!
I remember the first time that I really GOT that Life and I were having an intimate conversation.
It was my 30th birthday bash, and I had a whole weekend of festivities planned, with friends coming from all different parts of England and from different parts of my life to celebrate.
It was the Saturday night, and I’d hired a venue with a DJ.
We’d been there an hour or so, and my favourite song of the time came on – with my favourite bit of the verse, “I wanna show you what I’m capable of; honey won’t you give me the chance?”
I said, “OOOOH I LOVE this song” and ran on to the dance floor.
A few moments later, the smoke machines set off the fire alarm and the electricity for the whole venue went off.
And that was the END of my party.
At the time, I was SO disappointed. I knew that this was a reflection of my inner world – and I had the sense of not showing what I was capable of.
I had a Ph.D. from Cambridge and was also the youngest person to graduate from the psychotherapy training I’d done.
And yet my inner dialogue was SO harsh and judgmental, and I was in a relationship which mirrored that judgment.
Lost my power? You bet I had!
And at the time, I did feel helpless. I knew that the ‘outer’ world would reflect my ‘inner’ world and at the time I didn’t know how I could change it.
And yet, when I reflect back on that situation now, I see things differently.
The song was, “I want to show you what I’m capable of. Honey won’t you give me the chance?” – and I see that it’s all about waiting for acknowledgement from the outside.
What I see now is that I’m free to show people what I’m capable of, and it isn’t even about others giving me the chance. It’s about me giving myself the chance. And my inner dialogue is COMPLETELY different to what it used to be back then. My Inner Loving Crew are there, loving me and supporting me. So I don’t need to wait for someone else to give me the chance. I give myself my own chance to share.
I believe that Life is constantly talking to us.
It’s perhaps like the Native American and other indigenous cultures’ way of seeing things – that all around us, life is talking to us. The bird that flies in front of us, the sticks positioned in a message as we walk.
That is how I see Life.
And for me, this isn’t about looking something up in a book, although I respect if that is your way.
This is a personal conversation, and the same event might mean something quite different to me than to you.
For example, you might have heard me share the story of when I was planning on running workshops in Europe, and then my dog got sick (he is one of my main messengers). Finally I realised what it was – he was unable to shake his head. And that’s what I was unable to do – to shake my head and say, “no”.
Once I got the message, and the severity of the cost to the messenger, I did go and shake my head (with lots of apologies).
The messages often come to each of us in particular ways.
For me, they come most through my dog, my car, birds, signposts, posters and number plates.
And for me, they are often word plays. So I don’t get ‘thinky’ about trying to work them out. I stick to the observation and the words I use to describe it.
For example, when my dog had a really sore paw and was constantly licking it, I got that I was really uncomfortable with my “poor” (how I was being with money).
When my children were younger, they were constantly bringing me messages.
If you’ve been in a session or group call with me, you’ll know that if your child comes in to the session, I’ll be asking you what they said or did, because they will generally have some really important information or instructions.
For example, in a group call the other day, one woman’s son came in and said, “UP!” We took that as an invitation in her next step of her journey, and when she stood up, she was wearing a jumper with hot air balloons on it!
I LOVE responding to Life like this.
And what I LOVE most about this is that it gives me such a profound sense of BELONGING and MEANING.
I know that my being here isn’t an accident, and that I am intimately a part of the web of life.
As are each of us.
We each are profoundly interconnected with ALL of life, in very tangible ways, that we can cooperate with.
I wonder if this resonates with you?
I wonder what messages Life might have been sending to you recently.
I wonder how you feel when you know that you are in an intimate conversation with Life?
And the wonderful thing is that the conversation is two-way.
Life speaks to us in symptoms and signs and synchronicities.
And we speak to Life through our willingness.
And if you enjoy this way of seeing things, and you’d like to see how the four parts of my model fit together:
The Messages from Life
The Inner Loving Crew
The Willingness Practice
The Inner Loving Presence Process,
then you might be interested in my Inner Loving Presence Process for Entrepreneurs, which is open again.
I have two, two hour group facilitating sessions for those who join up in the next few days, so you get an opportunity to either be facilitated in one of these four processes, or to witness others being facilitated.
You can find out more HERE.
Much love,
Marion xoxox