The Room and the road: how me being tired yesterday and not coercing myself to take action relates to the Room.
The Room: a place for Conversations with Life has invited Mary and I on a profound journey.
You probably know that I am passionate about reconnecting with our true nature as Love and as Will; and if you’re wondering what on earth I’m talking about, I see this as a process of decolonising ourselves and reclaiming our true nature:
As Love: as interconnected with all of Life and intrinsically loving;
As Will: connected with the life force of Life and intrinsically powerful.
As the domination culture over the past thousands of years has held a ‘dominion over nature’ philosophy, this has applied both to dominion over mother nature and dominion over our own true nature as human beings.
In colonised cultures, the accepted process is:
To force roads through hills and ancient forests, through wetlands and sacred lands;
To build houses that have no relationship with the land, the seasons or the sun;
To coerce babies to be born at a time that is more about the hospital system than the divine mother-baby relationship;
To coerce children to all learn to read and write at the same time and to learn the same things, regardless of their lineage, aptitudes or interests.
and so on and so on.
Most of us internalise this domination system as children. The system gets passed down in this way.
We often disconnected from our own true nature and learnt to not trust our innate knowings (love);
We often learnt to coerce ourselves, push ourselves when we’re not ready, and to force ourselves through shoulding and guilt and other self-punishment.
Just as the Room has invited Mary and I to sink into an even deeper level of interconnectedness, so that we deeply live that everything is holographic, on a day to day basis (love)
so the Room has invited us to take the next level of deep trust in the timing of the Room (will)
To refrain from coercing ourselves or forcing ourselves or the Room, and in doing so, coming even more deeply into alignment with the profound flow of willingness.
The sea, torrential rain, a storm – these have great power.
And so does our true nature.
Just as I remember learning the saying, “Don’t push the river, it flows by itself,” when preparing for birthing, so we are immersing ourselves in a deep deep sense of trust in the Room’s timing.
Yesterday, I was planning on doing some of the last things that are needed before the Room opens, and yet, I felt deeply tired. The Solstice, eclipse and moon might have had something to do with it!
Rather than coercing myself, I rested. I listened deeply to my body and my needs.
As Mary and I were talking about deeply trusting our timing this morning, I felt even more relieved. I felt a beautiful out-breath and a deep sense of coming home to my body even more.
Imagine if you deeply trusted yourself and your timing; if you were compassionate with yourself and didn’t push yourself, yet also listened compassionately to younger scared parts that show up along the way.
In the process of bringing the Room into the world, if some younger part shows up for us, or some apparent technical challenge, we slow down, and we listen lovingly. Nothing is in the way. Nothing is swept aside without first attending to it.
The scared parts are heard.
The apparent technical hiccup becomes a profound doorway to something that wanted to be included in the Room.
Life can only speak to us through life.
And so we listen to it all.
It’s all part of the Conversation.
The pauses and the tiredness are honoured.
We work from willingness, not coercion or fear.
The Room’s very fabric is woven with the threads that Mary and I have spun over weeks of conversation.
Every single element of the Room has been lovingly received.
Every aspect, every detail, has come about through listening to the Messages from Life and conversing with each other.
Everything from how long it is, what it is for, how much it is, what we want to contribute, has been lovingly listened to.
Each part received as we might discover blackberries growing wild, and take them home and use them to dye yarn, which we then spin, to then use in a tapestry or a warm blanket.
For us, these qualities of beauty and substance and meaning and deep listening have permeated the Room.
We imagine you might be feeling those qualities emanating from the Room!
As we continue to listen in this way, we sense that the doors will be open in the next few days.
How do you feel and what emerges for you, having just read this?
Much love,
Marion xoxo