A few weeks ago, I was recording a podcast in my car whilst waiting for my daughter, who was at ballet.
In the 40 minute podcast, I was talking about how we re-create painful experiences that we didn’t get to heal from, so that we can hear the feelings of those younger parts of us, and give them reparative experiences.
I talked all about seeing these as opportunities, and rather than perceiving ourselves as victims who keep experiencing the same thing over and over, we can choose our own sovereign power to listen compassionately to these younger parts so that we don’t need to keep repeating.
I recorded the podcast as I usually do, and yet at the end only 4 seconds had been recorded!
So I went and recorded it all over again. Even though it said it was recording, this time only 4 minutes recorded!
And this point I had two choices.
To do exactly what I was talking about, and see this as an opportunity, and take the opportunity.
Or to get frustrated, feel powerless, blame my computer, etc. etc.
I took the first one!
I knew that Life was giving me clues.
The first clue was the 4 seconds and 4 minutes – pointing to this theme starting at age 4.
The second clue was where the recording stopped the second time.
It was just after I said, “We might be thinking that “he doesn’t listen to me” is about our child, where actually the thought and the feeling and the pain belongs to scenarios about our dad.”
That is a very clear message from Life, isn’t it!
And of course it matched what happened – that what I was saying ‘got cut off’.
So, later on, I did the Inner Loving Presence Process, and went back to being 4 and being with my Dad.
I’m so grateful to my Dad for so many things AND he talked a lot and didn’t really listen.
I did the Inner Loving Presence Process in two steps. First I wrote it all down.
I started with what happened,’my voice was cut off and he didn’t hear me.’
And my Inner Loving Father listened lovingly as I went through the steps of the ILPP.
Some of the things that emerged were 4 year old me saying, “LISTEN TO ME,” and, “STOP TALKING.”
I wanted my ILF to sit down, be quiet, for me to talk and him to listen.
Later on, in bed, I went through the process again, this time really deeply being in the experience.
I experienced standing on the chair that he always sat on in our living room, and singing and talking and him listening to me, without saying anything. I felt such joy, as I experienced that reparative experience.
At the end, he said, “I hear you. I love listening to you.”
This is so apt, given that I am wanting to share my voice more in the world!
I deeply value how Life so clearly shows us the next invitations for healing!
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