I love beauty! I love having beautiful toys for my children, having a beautiful home, and beautiful clothes.
In the past, buying new clothes was a control pattern for me – in other words, it was a repetitive way to stop myself from feeling uncomfortable feelings. I often wanted things – even though I had loads of clothes, I was always looking for that “perfect” pair of shorts, or floaty top, or sandals…. I was always looking for more.
Then, I made some internal shifts around power and beauty.
Soon after that, I went to a clothes shop which I had always longed to go to, but always thought too expensive, and had felt uncomfortable going inside. This time, I spent several hours there, trying on different outfits, with the help of the sales assistant, learning about accessories and different looks. I stayed long past the shop closing! I came out with the most beautiful clothes I had ever bought, and having spent way more than I had ever spent on clothes before. I felt euphoric…. and most of all I was euphoric because, AT LAST, I had been willing to have beauty, I was willing to embrace, and be, beautiful. I phone my friend and whooped with joy and ecstasy! I was willing to have!!!!!
And since then, my relationship with clothes has changed. I mostly only buy items from that same shop. I’d prefer one quality item than five cheaper things. I always wanted lots of clothes; my cupboard was always bulging. Nowadays I keep giving things away so that my wardrobe is becoming that “capsule” that fashion magazines love talking about!!! And I mostly love one similar style and colour – whereas before I had many styles and colours. It is as though I have found “me” – the unchanging, soulful me; and I have a particular way of expressing that. I have the most beautiful things now. I am not searching for more.
When I do go shopping, it’s all about an expression of beauty. Before it was a control pattern which was covering up feelings related to believing I couldn’t have beauty, or couldn’t be beautiful. The desire now comes from a sense of fullness wanting expression, rather than from a sense of lack wanting to be filled.
And I love supporting friends in co-creating beauty. One of my friends said yes to a bit identity shift, and I loved supporting her in getting rid of clothes that no longer expressed who she is, and in shopping for items that joyfully express her new, more self-friendly, identity. I also felt honoured to go with her as she had her hairstyle radically altered at the hairdressers.
When I was a teenager, I wanted to be a fashion designer. Nowadays I am passionate about supporting women to own and celebrate their own unique beauty, and express it fully and vibrantly. To me, it is very important that women do this – claim their beautiful selves, and open their eyes to the beauty in other women. Through this, I sense ripples of transformation going out into the world. Owning our beauty, that it comes from within, and also expressing it outwardly. Being willing to be beautiful. Beauty is often seen as “superficial”, yet in fact, looking at the natural world, so much of what exists is beautiful. There’s something so natural about beauty. Look at the sky, a sunset, the clouds, the leaves in a tree, a bird flying, a puppy playing ~ there is so much beauty in this world to be celebrated and loved.
As women, knowing that we have everything we need, that we are beautiful exactly as we are, in our unique way, is a powerful gift to give to the world.
Are you willing to know how beautiful you are? To know that you already have everything you need? To let yourself be called by your desires and your way of true self-expression? To let yourself have a beautiful life?